Migraine is killing me!!

   The weather too hot for me! Even I'm staying indoor still can feel the heat!
Selalunya I kena migraine bile ;

•   tak cukup tido or rest
•   tak minum nescafe or something yg ade caffeine
•   stress ( too much of thinking)
•   weather too hot               

  Tapi I kena migraine hari ni rasanya sebab kurang rehat & weather too hot. Kalau sakit kepala je tak pe ni sampai mata & idung pun sama (of coz la kan dah 1 nerve). The most part I didn't like when I'm migraine I easily get mad!! There is some part I feel like want to scream (in my imagination only) & hit my head so badly. Luckily, my mother in law & sister in law ade so dia tolong tengok-tengokkan Liqa (thank u mak & shida) & Gib with me.  

   I ingat bila dah makan ubat sakit ilang la tp..still sama..so ape I buat kali ni I mandi lagi sekali lagi, makan then minum nescafe..& guess what..the pain os automatically gone! Thank god! 

  Ini la sebab I tak nak kena matahari (waah...gedik sangat kan) yes I'm not kidding this is for real.. 

Well only this for now..

see ya soon! 

  

   

Sent them to HELL!!!

 It so shocking to heard the news about one girl had been killed then burned by MONSTER EVIL!!!! How could you as human being can did that to a kid who doesn't know anything?? Why on earth that MONSTER EVIL did such thing?? 

I'm so devastated, angry & sad when saw the news. Most shocking it happened in MALAYSIA! My country that "they" used to claimed most safe & peaceful "ISLAMIC COUNTRY".

  Ape la salah budak yg setahun tu boleh buat sampai "MONSTER EVIL" ni boleh bunuh camtu. I tak blh bayangkan macam mane saat2 kematian dia. Mengikut sumber dari polis budak perempuan ni didera dulu sebelum dibungkus dengan plastic bag & di bakar!!! If you want find out more; http://mynewshub.my/2012/12/22/polis-tubuh-pasukan-khas-siasat-budak-dibunuh-dan-dibakar/Ape dia ingat ni main masak2 ke buat macam tu!! Ni baru betul2 setan bertopengkan manusia!!! I ade anak yg sebaya dgn budak malang ni & lagi la I tambah sedih...yg selalu terpikir kenapa...kenapa...& kenapa MONSTER EVIL ni buat macam tu??? I nak tengok sangat orang yg buat ni...!!! Ape yg di pikir masa dera budakl ni..tak sedih ke bila dengar dia menangis merayu mintak simpati....I can't imagine saat2 nafas akhir dia..Subhanallah...isk..iskk...yes I'm crying...Alangkan I tengok kucing I saat2 hembus nafas terakhir pun I dah meraung inikan pulak budak kecik ni...

 Bila dah kena tangkap mula la bagi alasan bodoh kena rasuk la..dengar suara lain suruh buat la..& tu semua sebenarnya penyakit mental!!

  

Faktor2 selalu jadi penyebab seseorg jadi abuser (pendera);

• Stress
• Financial problem
• A history being abused themselves
• Poor control over their emotions

         The government should do something about this..it seems abusing case is  increase & no end..The society also need do something to make it work such as report to authorities if you find out there is abusing child around us. My suggestion, sebelum seseorg tu jadi ibu bapa diorg kena pegi amik mental test to get in parenting course (mcm kite sebelum kawin kena amik sijil perkahwinan) but this come with an exam. If u passed, yes u can be a parents & get cert if not need to go for  counselling. Kalau tengah pregnant & than tak pass exam you should go for counselling until u get a cert than need to observe how is it going. I’m afraid that one day abusing child is common in our society.

   p/s : may u rest in peace at heaven girl...i always pray for u..

Unspoken Words

   I woke up this morning suddenly remind of my hubby & the time was at 8:10am. So, I bbm him & he replied he on the way to the office & asking me why. I said nothing. Lately, kitorg jarang bercakap (which is normal to us) but "jarang bercakap" in the sense of quality communication (cewaah..). Selalu we spent time at least 10-15 minutes hangout after both of our kids tido. Since, I           have that "insomnia" my body tired so I sleep early dan semalam finally I dapat tido awal. So, bila tak hangout sama2 for this past 2-3 days rasa cam lain..mybe a little bit neglected (hahaa..pandai2 je).Ye la balik2 org yg dia cari dulu mesti la Liqa,Gibb & last is me.. :( ( org dah ade anak cam2 kot). Sometimes, dia balik terus tido & ktorg boleh x bercakap for that whole night. Kadang2 I terasa jugak kan..bila dah terasa mula la mode mengada2 tak nak ckp sgt..duduk dlm bilik..buat2 main tepon..he can notice if I change to mode mengada2..Kadang2 malas gak layan perasaan ni..sebab end up yg not happy is ME! Therefore, from being too attention seeker I changed myself to DO WHAT MAKE ME HAPPY & Think positive..keep myself busy with the kids! and this is one of reason I do blogging..

  

   

  Well..that's all for today! 

Bye..see ya soon..

Am I Insomnia?

Tonight I suppose sleep early but I'm still AWAKE!! What is wrong with me?? Ikut kajian (ayat skema pulak) kalau kite minum something yg ade caffeine it prevent dari mengantok or tido tapi selama ni I amik caffeine elok je tido on time. FEI, I'm caffeine addict!! Kalau tak dapat sehari my brain not function so well & I become slow like turtle (i mean my brain). Kadang-kadang I boleh jadi pemarah (if I don't take it in 1 day). Masa pregnant pun I still amik ( some people say & even doc suggest it's not good for baby's) depends on situation..heheee..Some peoples say it's because stress also can make you have sleeping disorder. I tak pernah & hopefully tak kan amik medication tuk tido. Bukan tak percaya it just I tak nak nanti akan rely on medication je..so I check out this website; http://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorders/guide/insomnia-symptoms-and-causes & find out I have the symptoms....Do you think I should see doctor & get a medications?? or should I try alternative way such as avoid caffeine before bed time? Me myself no idea...

Well..got to go to count sheep maybe it can help me sleeping tide..hahaaaa..

Goodnite everyone!!!! 

p/s : ada ke org baca blog aku ni sampai nak wish goodnite..."wat eva..haha"

Liqa's & My Story

Yesterday, we went to Liqa's appointment. Luckily, her weight got improvement after taking the Appeton weight gain. Last check up she 6.85kg & now she 7.5 (I'm so happy). Actually this is first time I'm taking her to clinic by myself..(my hubby can't take time off) & she so naughty. Sebelum ni, dia tak la friendly sangat & memang susah nak dgn org yg dia tak kenal tp bile dia dah masuk 1 tahun ni she changed to be so friendly. On 29th ni pulak I have appointment for PAP SMEAR test.. neves la pulak sebab 1st time buat. Bila nurse tanya dah period I said belum dengan muka sincere jawab.. then dia tanya "tak pernah period since lepas pantang?" I said belum..maybe sebab pakai implant kot..( ceh nak sedapkan hati sendiri..padahal takut). "Ooo takpe nanti kite boleh test kot2 terpregnant lagi" dgn selambanya. *FEI, I get my Gibby betul2 lepas pantang Liqa & they know my story & I'm quite famous la masa check up..hahaaa.. I'm confidently I'm not pregnant again coz I'm fully breastfeeding Gibby beside I'm using implant.( nak je jawab kat nurse tadi cam2).
Hopefully takda "good news" lagi la tp.....dah..dah..I won't thing about it. Well, I think only this for today...

Bye..see ya soon..

*for everyone info

Emotional Breakdown

Lately, I don't know why I'm so emotional!! I'm feeling depressed..lonely..& etc. Disebabkan tak nak mak it worse.. I keep myself busy..kadang2 benda yang tak pernah terpikir nak buat pun rasa nak buat..cth : lap my hubby's cds,kabinet, make up table & seterusnya la...Most probably I be like this sebab TAK CUKUP TIDUR!(according to research  if we don't have enough rest & sleep we can be mental distress example like me!). Tak tau la kenapa & apa yang buatkan I tak boleh tidur (like baby sebelum ni..hehee). I'm trying avoid taking nap every evening but still malam tak boleh tidur. Since I couldn't sleep many things keep playing in my mind.. ( is it normal?). Ooow..1 more thing yg tambahkan stress sebab I'm overeating sebab stress overweight sebab stress overweight sb I tak kan dapat my body cam dulu (ceewahh..cam la dulu body cam model `pdhal..chuxey -chubby +sexy..hehee).So, nak bagi tenang kan ati sikit I find food..( seriously I'm in dangerous zone). Actually, lot things I have to say but I have to go now my hubby's kind of suspect something.. (heheee)

Bye..see ya soon..

Innallillah Wainnalilahirojiun

On 9hb Dec'12 I received bbm from my lil brother bagitau yg anak saudara kitorg  meninggal...(isk...isk..). Masa mula2 baca message tu memang cam tak percaya sebab 3,4 hari lepas baru teringat kan dia. Kakak dia ckp arwah suffer dah lama sebab asthma arwah makin teruk & pakai life support machine. I wish I can go visit them at Baling, Kedah tp keadaan tak mengizinkan. FYI,physically, arwah seorg OKU tp high IQ. Agak lama jugak la tak jumpe diorg mayb last time masa my grandma passed away dlm 2 tahun kot.Mama dia memang sangat penyabar,loving & strong women I ever known ( other than my mom of coz). Allah lebih menyayangi dia.. Moga roh arwah di tempatkan di syurga dgn golongan org2 beriman.

Shopping..

I love weekend coz that is precious moment we spent time as family. We had so much fun on last Saturday..finally my hubby found the shoe that he dying for (heheee) & as for me I get a gifts from him. Anyway, I'm such frustrated when we went to The Curve. I'm hardly find baby changing place & breastfeeding room! There is only 1 place called baby centre room at 1st floor. I punya la excited bile jumpe tapi kegembiraan hanya lah sementara 1st sebab ramai org tunggu nak masuk 2nd sebab room tuk breastfeed pulak 2 je (??).. Orang yg  tengah tunggu turn dlm 3-4 org.End up we went to Tesco & finally jumpa jugak tp..1 je (??). Luckily tak de org dlm bilik tu & it's comfortable sikit compare dgn dlm The Curve. I like what The Curve Managment did but maybe..they should upgrade or consider tambah lagi tempat breasfeeding tuk mommy cam kami.

Another story pulak this is happen kat KL Festival City. Still facing the same issue like The Curve but this place tak ade langsung tuk breasfeeding room. Only have room for changing diapers tapi nasib baik bilik 2 takde org so I just breastfeed gib dekat situ. I'm not complaining but a little bit unsatisfied with the service provided. (ceh..)

However, I want give big compliments to Aeon (knownly as jusco) & Sogo shopping mall for make huge effort by did such a comfy & convenient place for breastfeeding moms. 

Well..I think only this for now..will catch up later...

Bye..see ya soon. 

Liqa & Gibby

And again Liqa still tak nak makan ( or shoud I say eating disorder)..Macam2 benda dah buat nak bagi dia makan & still no changes. I think no wonder la dia tak nak makan nasi sekarang sebab masa pregnant kan dia jarang makan nasi tapi makan western food. So, my hubby belikan Appeton for her for weight gain & hari ni hari ke3 dia makan vitamin tu but still tak ade ape2 changes...yet..As for Gibby pulak hari ni dia buat stunt lagi..kali ni meniarap betul (luckily, tepi tilam). Aku tengah mandikan Liqa bile keluar toilet dengar dia merenggek ( tak nangis pon) rupanya dah tertiarap apelagi lari lintang pukang la & the best part is he smiling bile angkat dia (notti tak..). This 2 angels always make my day & be my alarm every morning ( especially Gibby coz he wake up 6.30am everyday..yes everyday). Only this for now.

bye..see ya soon

Hello everyone & welcome

Bismillahirahmanirahim, Omg! I don't know how I can do this. Dah la tak tau nak cakap ape  then ade ati nak blogging. Well, kalo tak cuba mana nak tau betul tak? (Sedapkan ati sendiri) My mission write this blog just for fun & try something new. 

See ya' soon..